this will be my last journal entry. i won't be coming back here after this. a very good friend of mine, one of my closest actually, told me that all this online drama was not for me, and regardless to say, they were right. it's time i got a fresh start with everything, and that means closing down this account. deviantart was alright to me, though i didn't visit it often. it brought me new friends as well as heartache, love as well as despair and i am ready to draw close to this website. before i go, there are a few people who i wish to draw mention to and leave small messages should they choose to read this entry:

to matt, i really hate do this in a journal entry of all things...but as i've noticed from previous occasions, you hardly seem to check your e-mail or messages in general. all i want to say to you is that i don't understand why you made me go through hell...and then didn't even stick around long enough to try to get things back on track. you may have your life, and that's fine, i get it...but know that you no longer have mine. i need to move on with my life, i have waited for you for far too long and honestly i can't do that anymore. i have found someone else, someone who truly cares about me and doesn't want to see me upset or hurt and maybe you never intended me to be, but i was hurt nonetheless. when i needed you, you were no where to be found. i tried e-mailing you, messaging you and noting you dozens of times...only to get a few short responses in reply. i hope that you find what you deserve, whatever it may be. if you wish to e-mail me or still be a friend of mine, then great, if not, then this is goodbye and i thank you for the first few months of our relationship because when i met you i truly did need you, but now i can say that i can get along fine if you're there or not.


to middy and simon, i thank you for all the time you invested into helping me through my greatest struggles which could have cost me my life. i owe my life to the two of you and i can't begin to explain how grateful i am to the both of you. thank you again and i'm sure we'll be talking soon.


and lastly to everyone who talked to me, watched me and are reading this right now i thank you for your time.

with all that said i draw this journal, as well as this account, to a close. my contact information will still be on this page, should anyone wish to speak to me.


-Jake-